Today is 6 Nov
10:18 rn
I don't know what I'm doing here
But heart feel so heavy
n don't know who i talk with
In morning when i woke i got 2 bday wishes
U will think i will be happy by seeing those wishes but actually it's make me annoyed Bec the person who wished me it's feels like they doing there duty as they call me their lil bro.. like seriously what should i do with those sweet words n blessings tbh i just feel like I'm getting those wishes from stranger n ofcourse I'm a stranger for them now
Again 2 wish i got from someone who's very old friend of mine n Guess what he wish me happy birthday enjoy ur day n then he sent a drawing , it's not like i want whole party n pts n all i just wanted him to spend Lil time but bro was so busy, we we had lil argue last night he thought i ignored him but i didn't nvm.. oh yeh sec wish i got from someone i used to call my bestie
As i said i used to call that's means we r not talking anymore n reason I don't know till now
But it's good he's fine in his life what else we need
After seeing those wishes my day went so bad
I better not come online
I made 2 new friends lol
Nvm i don't wanna say anything
Don't know why i expect things from them
I should not forget that I don't hv to expect anything from anyone not even friends
After whole shity day one thing good happened
Mimi when she got to know about my bday she made a cute card i put that card in gc bg
n got wish from butter curry too we r not friends as she already told me that so , we do talk everyday so that's why ig she did cute wish to me
But i realised one thing again
No matter how hard u try to hide ur emotions or no matter how much u show ur emotions ppl who understand u they will know how u feeling n ig i didn't get that kind of person in my friendship
So i Better stay like before no expectation no pain no gain
Alone n Peaceful...
